Those images are still fresh in my mind. I remembered the moment my name was read out. I walked up towards Her Majesty and in no moment, the award was already on my hand.
And now, 6 years after the day, I am still much attached to the Girl Guides Association. Still very much preoccupied by the log book making. I am now taking my campers license test. It is much different compare to that time. May be I was too naive then. Now I feel the pressure...the whole of the association is looking at us.
I just don't know if it is because we have grown up or perhaps the young ones today are just too immature. I just don't know what's best I can do for them in the camp. It's too hard to accommodate to all…
Too tired to continue this blog but I know I will be there for the association…to the all my sisters in guiding…..I dedicate this song to you
Sing for Joy
Chorus:
Sing for joy, sing for love, sing for peace, sing for happiness,
Sing as you journey along
If one man turns to listen to the message that you bring,
One day the world will sing your song.
One day the world will sing your song.
Joy is for bringing to those who are sad.
Joy is a gift that is free.
Joy is the gladness that brightens each day.
Joy is a song for you and me.
Joy is a song for you and me.
Love is for giving wherever you go.
Love is for showing you care.
Love is compassion and friendship and trust.
Love is a song for everywhere.
Love is a song for everywhere.
Peace is for spreading all over the world.
Peace is the ending of war.
Peace is for justice and freedom and truth.
Peace is a song for everywhere.
Peace is a song for everywhere.
Friday, November 24, 2006
Wednesday, July 5, 2006
A Visit To My Alma Matter
July 4th 2006
I has been 5 years since I left my Alma Matter, the astonishing Convent Butterworth. I was there for 5 years and have never felt in love with my school till that I have left it.
I was there in front of the red bricks wall with Stefanie and Yee Leng. We were stopped by the Pak cik Guard who has kindly ask us to fill in form before we can enter the school. Wondering since when the school has such a system. However there are some redundant thing in the form. They were asking for reason of our visit, name of the pupil, class and etc. We have no idea what to be writen on the purpose of the visit column as our main purpose there was only to visit the school and meet our long lost touch teachers. And the worse thing which we thought is the funniest is the column for the signature by the respective teacher. We are no parents nor students, so who should sign that column then.
Walking into the school I felt so aliened. There wasn't any familiar faces till me met Pn Lee. I think she looked so different now with the pony tail on. We had a short chat and being told that most of the teachers we knew was not in. They were away in a course. Too bad it wasn't our day then!
We met Pn Wan, Ms Pamela, Pn Komala, Pn Thilaga, Pn Fadilah and of course our respected and caring Bio teacher Pn Hasanah. Most of them looked very much the same as they were 5 years ago. We enjoyed the chats with them but not the part which we got interviewed by all of them on what we are now doing.
We met other familiar faces such as the pakcik and makcik in the canteen. These sellers remain unchanged for more than 10 years now and with the same old food.
But we were impressed with all the renovation done. They have created a Bilik Warisan...a heritage room. There they have placed many old plaque there and I have identified few which I was in. There were the names of those that had contributed to the rich history of CBW being displayed on the wall. Besides that, there was also a co-curiculum site. It was a huge compound with cemented floor. How nice it is if we were to have that during our time.
Not only that, right now the school is working on raising fund for the renovation of the hall, the Dewanton. They proposed to have a fully air conditioned, closed hall, with the design something very much like an ampitheatre. Wondering how can such a small compound accommodate all of that?
No matter how much it has changed it is still my beloved school.
I has been 5 years since I left my Alma Matter, the astonishing Convent Butterworth. I was there for 5 years and have never felt in love with my school till that I have left it.
I was there in front of the red bricks wall with Stefanie and Yee Leng. We were stopped by the Pak cik Guard who has kindly ask us to fill in form before we can enter the school. Wondering since when the school has such a system. However there are some redundant thing in the form. They were asking for reason of our visit, name of the pupil, class and etc. We have no idea what to be writen on the purpose of the visit column as our main purpose there was only to visit the school and meet our long lost touch teachers. And the worse thing which we thought is the funniest is the column for the signature by the respective teacher. We are no parents nor students, so who should sign that column then.
Walking into the school I felt so aliened. There wasn't any familiar faces till me met Pn Lee. I think she looked so different now with the pony tail on. We had a short chat and being told that most of the teachers we knew was not in. They were away in a course. Too bad it wasn't our day then!
We met Pn Wan, Ms Pamela, Pn Komala, Pn Thilaga, Pn Fadilah and of course our respected and caring Bio teacher Pn Hasanah. Most of them looked very much the same as they were 5 years ago. We enjoyed the chats with them but not the part which we got interviewed by all of them on what we are now doing.
We met other familiar faces such as the pakcik and makcik in the canteen. These sellers remain unchanged for more than 10 years now and with the same old food.
But we were impressed with all the renovation done. They have created a Bilik Warisan...a heritage room. There they have placed many old plaque there and I have identified few which I was in. There were the names of those that had contributed to the rich history of CBW being displayed on the wall. Besides that, there was also a co-curiculum site. It was a huge compound with cemented floor. How nice it is if we were to have that during our time.
Not only that, right now the school is working on raising fund for the renovation of the hall, the Dewanton. They proposed to have a fully air conditioned, closed hall, with the design something very much like an ampitheatre. Wondering how can such a small compound accommodate all of that?
No matter how much it has changed it is still my beloved school.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Road not Taken!
Remember that many years ago that I have is this Literature and Sastera thingy in our SPM language paper and the text of Road Not Taken.
Now thinking of the text resulted many doubts and questions start to arise in my mind. Well I did enjoyed my life for most of the time and I have experienced a lot of cool stuff like living abroad, traveling alone in India, working my way to the Queen's Guide Award, holding numerous leadership positions in High School and University and trying a lot of daring stuff which many of my age would not yet I have things, memories and experiences that I have missed to possessed them on my journey of life.
Growing up being the 4th out of 5th in my family has not been a shorting but growing up in the enviroment filled with noise pollution was at time scary. I used to live with my Grandparents and all my uncles and aunties. So I could not escaped my grandpa's nagging habit.
My grandpa used to nag us on apparalently all matters. From table manner to food from sleeping hour to wakey-wakey. Set rules like no bread or snack at 5 coz dinner time will be soon on, no sleeping till 9am even at holiday time course you are a girl....very strong gender discrimination element here, huh? Very typical China Man! Men are for work, women are for Kitchen! When grown, man will bring a woman back and carry his surname and for girl you will be like a pail of water being splash out. It can never return back into the pail. That is the Chinese saying and this idioms came right from this phenomenan.
But Thank God for treating me well. I have a gifted Parents. They are very supportive and Caring. With their love and warmth, I grew up with all that I can ask for. Perhaps this mix enviroment, I grew up being more mature that those of my age and being one with lots of determination and to believe in myself.
In this enviroment, I am groomed to be very independent. Never day dream of inheriting any monetary item from my so called millionaire grandpa nor my father. I worked and strived for my dream, determine my own future and create my own story of life.
Back bout the road not taken, I have done a lot which is different from others. I worked for years for my Queen's Guide Award alone, without the company of any classmates or even schoolmates but then there are pro-and-cons of this. I was busy with my log books and camps and spent little time with my friends. I missed out parties and gossip time with them. I did not shared the same interest in our leisure chat. I talked less bout dressing, make-up and of course boys.
But at the end of my high school time, I have a wider network of friends, more independent and have learn the skill needed to enable me to click with every grouping that we have in my class. I have no specific group but I was pleased to have invitations from every group. I blended moderately but blended with every group makes it so special.
Traveling for guiding is another interesting chapter in my personal log. Traveling across the strait to the Penang Island almost once a week was very tiring and boring and packed myself in those sardin like bus mini was exhausting. And the worst encoutered I had was running across the highway of 3 lanes on each direction in the middle of the night. With all those eyes looking in my direction puzzled to see a teenage girl running accross the highway alone more over in the middle of the night. But these are what we call experiences and all the learning process. Now I am a good traveller.
.....to be continued
Now thinking of the text resulted many doubts and questions start to arise in my mind. Well I did enjoyed my life for most of the time and I have experienced a lot of cool stuff like living abroad, traveling alone in India, working my way to the Queen's Guide Award, holding numerous leadership positions in High School and University and trying a lot of daring stuff which many of my age would not yet I have things, memories and experiences that I have missed to possessed them on my journey of life.
Growing up being the 4th out of 5th in my family has not been a shorting but growing up in the enviroment filled with noise pollution was at time scary. I used to live with my Grandparents and all my uncles and aunties. So I could not escaped my grandpa's nagging habit.
My grandpa used to nag us on apparalently all matters. From table manner to food from sleeping hour to wakey-wakey. Set rules like no bread or snack at 5 coz dinner time will be soon on, no sleeping till 9am even at holiday time course you are a girl....very strong gender discrimination element here, huh? Very typical China Man! Men are for work, women are for Kitchen! When grown, man will bring a woman back and carry his surname and for girl you will be like a pail of water being splash out. It can never return back into the pail. That is the Chinese saying and this idioms came right from this phenomenan.
But Thank God for treating me well. I have a gifted Parents. They are very supportive and Caring. With their love and warmth, I grew up with all that I can ask for. Perhaps this mix enviroment, I grew up being more mature that those of my age and being one with lots of determination and to believe in myself.
In this enviroment, I am groomed to be very independent. Never day dream of inheriting any monetary item from my so called millionaire grandpa nor my father. I worked and strived for my dream, determine my own future and create my own story of life.
Back bout the road not taken, I have done a lot which is different from others. I worked for years for my Queen's Guide Award alone, without the company of any classmates or even schoolmates but then there are pro-and-cons of this. I was busy with my log books and camps and spent little time with my friends. I missed out parties and gossip time with them. I did not shared the same interest in our leisure chat. I talked less bout dressing, make-up and of course boys.
But at the end of my high school time, I have a wider network of friends, more independent and have learn the skill needed to enable me to click with every grouping that we have in my class. I have no specific group but I was pleased to have invitations from every group. I blended moderately but blended with every group makes it so special.
Traveling for guiding is another interesting chapter in my personal log. Traveling across the strait to the Penang Island almost once a week was very tiring and boring and packed myself in those sardin like bus mini was exhausting. And the worst encoutered I had was running across the highway of 3 lanes on each direction in the middle of the night. With all those eyes looking in my direction puzzled to see a teenage girl running accross the highway alone more over in the middle of the night. But these are what we call experiences and all the learning process. Now I am a good traveller.
.....to be continued
Monday, June 12, 2006
My first time facilitating National Conference
Last month, I received an invitation from Seanz the Chairman on Miracle Youth Conference 2006. I was glad to be given such an opportunity however I have declined the invitation as I was worried that I may not be able to deliver. Luckily that I have finally changed my mind. Now I know that I was wrong.
For the past week in Miracle Youth Conference, in those sleepless nights and demanding days, I have learned and experienced a lot. Though this wasn't the first time I facilitated but I was really challenging to facilitate in a national conference filled with the youth atmosphere. Much preparation work was done way before the conference.
Checked in to the hostel, KTP on the afternoon of 4th June 2006. My brain was filled with anxious. I was prepared for the blast and to greet all my delegates. Final discussion occupied us till late night.
The 1st day of MYC '06, we the Faci team presented the cool gimmick, with the theme....Matrix. It was impressive and kicked start the conference.
I was placed to facilitate the small group of 13 with Rached. We enjoyed the company of all our teammates. They were all energetic youths and with brilliant ideas. They have presented a very cool nightgown in the Runway project together with group 3. Thanks to our pretty model, Naina. Though our team has not won in this competition but I am convinced that they have learned a lot from the sessions that we have prepared for them.
The United Nations General Assembly, UNGA has managed to encourage the youth to think maturely. Among the issues discussed were Air pollution, Kyoto Protocol, and etc.
The Miracle University slots were very beneficial for youths today. On my 1st block with the delegates in the Formal Writing Session, many were still uncertain on the suitable writing language that must be used in writing. Writing could be so interesting if the correct language or words used at the suitable place and time. However we the facis team enjoyed to share our knowledge and experience with our delegates.
Then in the 2nd block where we discussed on the current 5R issues, we realized that many youths were able to think out of the box. Many has the idea what those issues like, Garbage disposal, Water pollution, alternative power and etc means but it was very shallow. It was enough to only answer simple an essay question in their examinations. Those answers given were fed by teachers in class. Well in my class of Alternative Energy, I have only got very common response such as x and Y energy is better cost it is reusable and it is cheap. There were so many factors that led to why these resources were used but not the others but our education system are only able to breed youth that think very rigidly.
Well in the 3rd block of Miracle University, I was placed to teach Japanese language with Momoko. I was impressed with the Japanese perfectionist spirit. She did much of her preparation work and tried her very best in delivering her mother tongue language though she may lost her words at time.
Finally in the 4th block, it was the Do it YOURSELF block. I think that this is the most not beneficial session as we have not managed to deliver our objective that is to breed a community that are 5R conscious. Our delegates have managed to produce many products such as poster, origami, file, bookmarks and many more. They were good but I realized that at the end of the session, the delegates were not able to implement those in their daily activities.
In the Bafa-Bafa session, I have been assigned to facilitate a group to present their culture that is politeness. It was an enjoyable session. Though my fellow team was puzzled with what they have seen, some Barbaric and lazy people's culture. Through this game, the delegates got to understand the importance of understanding others culture.
I enjoyed all the sessions and of course no to forget all those square dances that we have put up. haha...One who used to be so static can now dance...well this is the AIESEC culture that we have portray to the youth. We work very hard in the day and play even harder at night. Bravo AIESEC! Not to forget our best DJ, VJ....Raja. He is such a cool DJ! And not to forget our Sexy boy, Gan. Thank you for all the cool and interesting parties and to our intelligent kayu Soo Soo, thank you for putting so many beneficial ideas and being so supportive.
As a whole this Conference is a blast to me. Not only that I have gained experience facilitating, but I have learned from those sisters and brothers of mine. They were energetic and creative. And of course I made new friends and got closer to some AIESECers. Now i see the logic of why those that have attended or facilitated conference together tend to go crazy when they are placed together again.
Finally I wish to thank all parties that made this youth Conference a success. Thank you to AIESEC UPM, the faci team, international interns, OC and of courses our delegates. Thank you!
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Last note to all Malaysian youth,
It is time for you to grow. Stop depending on lecturers or teachers. Think out of the boxes. This is the time where you will need to source and shape your thought!
For the past week in Miracle Youth Conference, in those sleepless nights and demanding days, I have learned and experienced a lot. Though this wasn't the first time I facilitated but I was really challenging to facilitate in a national conference filled with the youth atmosphere. Much preparation work was done way before the conference.
Checked in to the hostel, KTP on the afternoon of 4th June 2006. My brain was filled with anxious. I was prepared for the blast and to greet all my delegates. Final discussion occupied us till late night.
The 1st day of MYC '06, we the Faci team presented the cool gimmick, with the theme....Matrix. It was impressive and kicked start the conference.
I was placed to facilitate the small group of 13 with Rached. We enjoyed the company of all our teammates. They were all energetic youths and with brilliant ideas. They have presented a very cool nightgown in the Runway project together with group 3. Thanks to our pretty model, Naina. Though our team has not won in this competition but I am convinced that they have learned a lot from the sessions that we have prepared for them.
The United Nations General Assembly, UNGA has managed to encourage the youth to think maturely. Among the issues discussed were Air pollution, Kyoto Protocol, and etc.
The Miracle University slots were very beneficial for youths today. On my 1st block with the delegates in the Formal Writing Session, many were still uncertain on the suitable writing language that must be used in writing. Writing could be so interesting if the correct language or words used at the suitable place and time. However we the facis team enjoyed to share our knowledge and experience with our delegates.
Then in the 2nd block where we discussed on the current 5R issues, we realized that many youths were able to think out of the box. Many has the idea what those issues like, Garbage disposal, Water pollution, alternative power and etc means but it was very shallow. It was enough to only answer simple an essay question in their examinations. Those answers given were fed by teachers in class. Well in my class of Alternative Energy, I have only got very common response such as x and Y energy is better cost it is reusable and it is cheap. There were so many factors that led to why these resources were used but not the others but our education system are only able to breed youth that think very rigidly.
Well in the 3rd block of Miracle University, I was placed to teach Japanese language with Momoko. I was impressed with the Japanese perfectionist spirit. She did much of her preparation work and tried her very best in delivering her mother tongue language though she may lost her words at time.
Finally in the 4th block, it was the Do it YOURSELF block. I think that this is the most not beneficial session as we have not managed to deliver our objective that is to breed a community that are 5R conscious. Our delegates have managed to produce many products such as poster, origami, file, bookmarks and many more. They were good but I realized that at the end of the session, the delegates were not able to implement those in their daily activities.
In the Bafa-Bafa session, I have been assigned to facilitate a group to present their culture that is politeness. It was an enjoyable session. Though my fellow team was puzzled with what they have seen, some Barbaric and lazy people's culture. Through this game, the delegates got to understand the importance of understanding others culture.
I enjoyed all the sessions and of course no to forget all those square dances that we have put up. haha...One who used to be so static can now dance...well this is the AIESEC culture that we have portray to the youth. We work very hard in the day and play even harder at night. Bravo AIESEC! Not to forget our best DJ, VJ....Raja. He is such a cool DJ! And not to forget our Sexy boy, Gan. Thank you for all the cool and interesting parties and to our intelligent kayu Soo Soo, thank you for putting so many beneficial ideas and being so supportive.
As a whole this Conference is a blast to me. Not only that I have gained experience facilitating, but I have learned from those sisters and brothers of mine. They were energetic and creative. And of course I made new friends and got closer to some AIESECers. Now i see the logic of why those that have attended or facilitated conference together tend to go crazy when they are placed together again.
Finally I wish to thank all parties that made this youth Conference a success. Thank you to AIESEC UPM, the faci team, international interns, OC and of courses our delegates. Thank you!
Last note to all Malaysian youth,
It is time for you to grow. Stop depending on lecturers or teachers. Think out of the boxes. This is the time where you will need to source and shape your thought!
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
A year down the road, where am I leading to?
A year pasted since I left home for India. Many things have changed tremendously in this shortly 1 year. The way I looked at the world and my priorities. One very significantly represented thing was of course nothing else than my study. From a Dean List recipient to be one of the worse Further Maths grade recipient, I thought. Not that after this internship made me placed my study last but it made my mind clear of what I wanted to achieve from my university life, what I wanted most in these 4 years.
During my internship in India, I have learned and experienced a lot. Those joys and obstacles made me understand the true me and the mean of living life to the fullest. Many have asked what I have learned from my internship. Well I have always an answer for them…telling them how much I have enjoyed meeting people and traveling and how challenging the internship was. But honestly this was what words can’t describe and what money can’t buy. It was all deep in my heart.
Lately, I have a friend of mine which also applied to go on an internship with AIESEC, asked me the same question but my answer to her was different from all those that I have said to others. I knew that it was my responsibility to tell her all that she have faced. We spend hours discussing about my fear there; my safety, loneliness, language barrier, food tolerance, cleanliness, health and sexual harassment and of course we did discuss on ways to overcome those. We in AIESEC are supposed to be like a big family. We are always there for each other. This is what that makes AIESEC IIEP so different from any other exchange programme.
Yes that I have perhaps experienced one of those worst night mare that an intern could have but I blamed no one instead I thank them, those who has been so supportive and have assisted me all this way. I believe disasters may take place at any time any where. It was just another test for me. So let us be strong!
Day by day my passion for AIESEC grew stronger and stronger. The vision that we have, "Peace and Fulfillment of Mankind" is indeed very challenging and it is also my dream. Thinking of those unfortunate children in India and the poverty there made me realize how fortunate I am. So I believe we in AIESEC can make the different but yet…. at time I am so disappointed to learn that these words mean nothing to others. They were merely 5 words put together. I tried to make some changes but these people are just too result oriented. Many have lost focus on their journey to achieve their goals and for the fame that comes with it. I wish that these people will be enlightened and be lead back our vision.
Let us share one same vision that is for the world and the people!
During my internship in India, I have learned and experienced a lot. Those joys and obstacles made me understand the true me and the mean of living life to the fullest. Many have asked what I have learned from my internship. Well I have always an answer for them…telling them how much I have enjoyed meeting people and traveling and how challenging the internship was. But honestly this was what words can’t describe and what money can’t buy. It was all deep in my heart.
Lately, I have a friend of mine which also applied to go on an internship with AIESEC, asked me the same question but my answer to her was different from all those that I have said to others. I knew that it was my responsibility to tell her all that she have faced. We spend hours discussing about my fear there; my safety, loneliness, language barrier, food tolerance, cleanliness, health and sexual harassment and of course we did discuss on ways to overcome those. We in AIESEC are supposed to be like a big family. We are always there for each other. This is what that makes AIESEC IIEP so different from any other exchange programme.
Yes that I have perhaps experienced one of those worst night mare that an intern could have but I blamed no one instead I thank them, those who has been so supportive and have assisted me all this way. I believe disasters may take place at any time any where. It was just another test for me. So let us be strong!
Day by day my passion for AIESEC grew stronger and stronger. The vision that we have, "Peace and Fulfillment of Mankind" is indeed very challenging and it is also my dream. Thinking of those unfortunate children in India and the poverty there made me realize how fortunate I am. So I believe we in AIESEC can make the different but yet…. at time I am so disappointed to learn that these words mean nothing to others. They were merely 5 words put together. I tried to make some changes but these people are just too result oriented. Many have lost focus on their journey to achieve their goals and for the fame that comes with it. I wish that these people will be enlightened and be lead back our vision.
Let us share one same vision that is for the world and the people!
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